Its 27th of July. Last night I was with my chaddi buddi friend Jinal....it was her 4th year of on & off relationship. She was sad coz she din't meet her him & I felt bad. So we planned on going for a long drive & we landed up at Worli seaface (what we call is our 'ADDA'). There was a cool nicel breeze which was so perfect for the moment. I wanted her to remove everything what was there in her heart. She cried & talked for a moment & felt good about it. Then we left for our home.
Today, I feel like writing everything what's going on in my life. There is depression, stress, tension, worries, boredom, unlikes, hatred, ups & downs. Everyone goes through bad times in their lives & if not then that its not a perfect life. My question to everyone is that how to deal with it when one is going through. Everyone is not strong enough to handle it in BLINK OF A EYE time. Right now, I feel my life is just devastating. Its just going bad to worse...I feel like ending it up but do not even have the guts of doing that. It feels I'm loosing my family, my friends & all dear ones...no hopes, no courage, no motivation. There are so many things going all together - family, friends, relationships.
It was pending since a long time & finally she was there on the other side of the phone. It was Urvi from Baroda. I finally had a talk with her. Discussed all possible things with her, spilled out everything which was there in my stomach since long & felt sooooo good & relieved. A big hug to U ({}) (bbm). Eagerly waiting for you to come down to Mumbai. It was around an hour ta shlk....phewwww..........
Want to do so much in life but so little time & we spent that little time in doing nothing. ONE LIFE, LIVE IT is what I say. I wanna make myself & my parents proud of me at least once in my lifetime which has to happen any how. Who will not want their life to run smooth........
Like every normal girl, I too dream of the PRINCE CHARMING of my life, like irritating my mother, loves to go shopping, loves going for sneak outs with my girl friends, gossip like any other girl, irritate friends when they're already irritated & then smile for our stupid behaviour......I always want that people should never have any problems because of me...I wish i could help them come out of their problems....never see them cry....always smiling :) but I guess every things not in our hand....life cannot go according to us...we need to take life as it comes to us....there is still so much for me to learn. I never want to make my parents sad....they should never put their head down because of me.....
I hope this is enough for now to discuss with my 'Present Life'........I'll continue writing with my past, present & future..................love Shelly <3